Still sick.

I’ve been home alone all day going mad with thoughts. Doesn’t help that I’m sick and the cough i’ve had for 3 days keeps yanking out my lungs while burning my throat. 

I remember the days when this would be normal and hanging out by myself. Then it shifted to me hanging out with atleast one person a day. Now having a day like this is just strange. Albeit i don’t mind it.

I feel like I’m losing my rational mind to my emotional mind now. Its been a strange two months of mix feelings and strange advice from people. No matter how far I want my mind to run…things seemingly catch up to me when I’m alone and i don’t like it one bit! Lingering thoughts…